The Diary

'Cause I don't wanna be like this
I've been running these streets
For too long now
I've got nothing, it's true
But this song now
But the further I go
I wanna go home

'Cause I don't wanna be like this
I've been running these streets
For too long now
I've got nothing, it's true
But this song now
But the further I go
I wanna go home

I fucking swear that I care
But it's hard when you stare
Into the bottom of a bottle
That is empty and bare
Oh my desolate soul
In my desolate home
It's my desolate role
Yeah, I'm here all alone
I can't think of a reason
To get the fuck out of bed
Curtains closed, lights are off
Am I alive or dead?
I haven't shaved in a week
I always slur when I speak
Tolerance at it's peak
Another fit just to sleep
Oh woe is me, woe is me
I guess I need love
Hoes you see, hoes you see
I'm just in a rut
And I swear I'm tryin baby
Please, baby don't leave
Goddamn I'm a fuck-up
But I guess that's just me
So I sit in my room
And I'll cry in my bed
Thinking about all the shit
That made me wrong in my head
I keep trying to climb
But it seems so steep
Pour myself a fucking whiskey
And go back to sleep, bitch

'Cause I don't wanna be like this
I've been running these streets
For too long now
I've got nothing, it's true
But this song now
But the further I go
I wanna go home

'Cause I don't wanna be like this
I've been running these streets
For too long now
I've got nothing, it's true
But this song now
But the further I go
I wanna go home

I watch my mama cry
She says: Baby why?
I say: Baby died
Baby's gone like a suicide
I don't think you'll see him soon mom
Stay out my room mom
Tell daddy that I hate
That motherfucker like you mom
I sing this shit for you
Danny, Sasha and Jordan
These beers keep getting warmer
Every time that I hold them
I pour this out for you
Like a partner in crime
It's a part of the times
When you're sick in the mind
Yeah, I'm sick, oh so sick
I'm so sick of this shit
Yeah, I'm lit, oh so lit
I'm so fucked up off it
So I stumble around
Till I stumble-fall down
Into this puddle of my tears
Laying here on the ground
When you've got nothing left
You've got nothing left to lose
With my last left single breath
I'll still be singing to you
So when you bury me man
You better bury me deep
And sing along to this song
'Cause you're broken like me

'Cause I don't wanna be like this
I've been running these streets
For too long now
I've got nothing, it's true
But this song now
But the further I go
I wanna go home

'Cause I don't wanna be like this
I've been running these streets
For too long now
I've got nothing, it's true
But this song now
But the further I go
I wanna go home

And I wanna go back to the start!
Back where we started from!
And I know it's been so long!
I was wrong! I was wrong!
I was wrong all along!

And I wanna go back to the start!
Back where we started from!
And I know it's been so long!
I was wrong! I was wrong!
I was wrong all along!

'Cause I don't wanna be like this
I've been running these streets
For too long now
I've got nothing, it's true
But this song now
But the further I go
I wanna go home

'Cause I don't wanna be like this
I've been running these streets
For too long now
I've got nothing, it's true
But this song now
But the further I go
I wanna go home