D(e)ad

I was the one not chosen
You have your own new family and friends
You know it wasn't the distance that kept us apart
You were made just to break my heart

Your attitude I'll never understand
You never wanted to love who I am
Your absence hurt me, but your presence
I don't know
Wanted your lap the times that I felt low

But how do I know if this time you will not lie
You never hesitated to leave me behind
There's only rain when it comes to you
But I just can't hate you

In any time in my life
You were never by my side
I'm tired of settling with lies
And when you say: I love you
Your actions show that's not true
I already gave up on you

But how do I know if this time you will not lie (you will lie)
You never hesitated to leave me behind
There's only rain when it comes to you (daddy)
'Cause I just can't reach you

In any time in my life
You were never by my side
I'm tired of settling with lies
And when you say: I love you
Your actions show that's not true
I already gave up on you

And what gives me more rage
Is when you suddenly act strange
I just can not trust in you
Your toxic blood runs through my veins
What do you feel when you hear my name?
This has worn me out too much