Better

there's no sense waiting in this state i've realized too late there's only so much left inside only so much space to hide i've dreamed of castles in the air but i've found out where i need a break or a vacation before i give myself a scare don't try to understand me your logic won't command me don't try to read between my mind if i could kill you with a touch i'd never hate this much one thousand colors every day but all i see is grey my history is plagarized i feel desensitized maybe one more shot of reason will ripple this disguise i told that man just what i thought of him so i'm right where i am tied to this bed subconciously restrained and now i wish i hadn't said what i said to both of my parents because i made my mother cry if they'd only wait i'll make it up to them because i can be a better man i'm floating in a frozen sea i'll watch the morning break giving way to shades of brown i see the colors all around for once there's no one here but me and my autumn reverie and in my heart i know it's as close as i'll ever be