Heather

2017
The first time you messaged me
First fan I ever had
Put me on when you were sad

You said you hated growing up
You were sure that I'd blow up
Shared my songs with all your friends
I could barely pay the rent

Singing to an empty room
But I knew what I meant to you
You got the x's tattooed
Reminding me I had you

Never got to to thank you

I wouldn't be here without you
Without you, without you believing
And now that I'm here without you
Without you, the words have no meaning
A promise was spoken
You're gone and I'm broken
Now I'm barely holdin' on, holdin' on
I wouldn't be here without you
Why am I here without you?

2021
Told me that you've come undone
Lost your job and lost your dad
Your biggest fan is all you had

X's covered up with scars
On your arm, from self-harm
Message me, I don't reply
I wish I knew it was goodbye

Singing to a crowded room
Saved a seat, I looked for you
I made it to your hometown
Guess I'm on my own now

I wish I got to save you

I wouldn't be here without you
Without you, without you believing
And now that I'm here without you
Without you, the words have no meaning
A promise was spoken
You're gone and I'm broken
Now I'm barely holdin' on, holdin' on
I wouldn't be here without you
Why am I here without you?

This is dedicated
If you put me on your playlist
If you showed up to the stages
If I never get to say this

I'm proud of you
For all the shit that's drowning you
And all the noise surrounding you
Hope you find what I found in you

And I hope that you grow old with me
We turn up till we're seventy
Play me at your wedding and you never leave
If you ever need anything
And I don't pick up, well, you still got a friend in me
Wish I said all that to Heather now I just hope she rests in peace