Breaking in Reverse

I'm not initiating anything
But I won't stop it if you start
There's a million black dogs in my head
And they're fighting with my heart

You put your hand upon my shoulder
You said you weren't sure if it was the light
But you told me that I'm beautiful
And then you told me that it wasn't right

Maybe I'm too quick at replying
When you tell me what you're doing for tea
And I know exactly what I'm doing
'Cause it's exactly what you're doing to me

And I told you I'm writing again
And you know exactly what it's about
Two hearts breaking in reverse

Don't ask me why I'm smiling
'Cause there's just so much I could say to you
Like there's a life of wet walking boots ahead
If we could just see this bit through

So if I seem a little colder
It's 'cause I'm terrified of melting away
Before I can serve myself on a platter
And all that matters is that judgement day

And it's too painful going backwards
So I'll invite myself over yours for tea
And I know exactly what I'm doing
'Cause it's exactly what you're doing to me

And I told you I'm writing again
And you know exactly what it's about
Two souls aching
Two lips shaking, two eyes waking
The time it’s taking, it's painstaking
Two hearts breaking in reverse