Behind the Wall of Sleep

If you're good, you live forever
And if you're bad
You die when you die

Stand alone all up in the dark
Blood pour out the candle with this bleedin' heart
Leaning far over the black abyss and stare in, too emotionless
Velvet dinosaur with a kiss
And then I inflate my lungs to breathe the planet
Sacred handshake, I'm understandin'
Breaking down buds in the palm of my hand, in total darkness
Can't fuckin' deal it, yo, my soul's reflectin'
And movements in the universe, so I got no reception
No time for talkin'
From deep inside my mind, I'm steppin'
I lost myself and found myself dead when the tide was swept in
One foot in the grave, still looking to blaze
Found myself dead in water, I've been floating for days
They say it's never too late to pick yourself back up again
So I picked up my dead body, flung it over my shoulder
On the shores of the beach, half dead, I found peace

I love you, but I can’t trust you
Don't know why I love you, but I can’t trust you

Look, look
Lightning and thunder in the skies when I first saw you
Should've left you at the dome, planted in the soil
I was born without you, girl, and I’ve been here before you
But my feelings overpowered me trying to ignore you
Should've left you in that single daydream
Now I'm a prisoner of feelings, and they’re always changing
Tried to say you love me but your words jammed
Last night I saw you in a dream with another man
Stood in sorrow, wept until tomorrow
Deep in darkness of the forest but no longer hollow
'Cus I was born without you, girl, and I’ve been here before you
My paths alone, you wanna walk alone all on the soil
Tried to say I love you but my words jammed
Hopefully one day you'll understand who the fuck I am

Trying to work out who I am behind the wall of sleep
I travel deep through bad thought to find good memories
The cemetery be calling out to me, but I don't speak
Like I don’t speak to people no more, ah, you're free to leave
Too weak to grieve, I'll fall away just like an autumn leaf
No heart to beat, I'm walking dead, and I can hardly see
No future, just my fucking past
My hourglass smashed into shards, but still, I camouflage
But how much longer can I mask my pain?
Just wanna blast my fucking brain, and never start again
But that's the cycle when I always end up on this planet
Don't understand the other people down here walking 'round it
Tried to love my life, but seems I got a problem
'Cus every friend that used to love me now has long forgotten

I love you, but I can’t trust you
Don’t know why I love you, but I can’t trust you