why i am alive

Sometimes I don't wanna try
I can't seem to smile, I can't seem to cry
What is the point when I don't want to open my eyes
Sorry for feeling this way
A burden I know but what else can I say
I'd rather you leave me, you know that you don't have to stay

I want to give up
Let go of these chains
Please leave me in peace
And end this pain
But I cannot be
So selfish and flee
Because

I may hate myself
But I still love you
Even if my pains gone
It'll only pass on back to you
I don't understand
What you all see in me
But you love me and I love you

I've had enough
I want to be done
The hurt in my heart
Cannot be healed
But I have to try
I can't say goodbye
Because

I may hate myself
But I still love you
Even if my pains gone
It'll only pass on back to you
I don't understand
What you all see in me
But you love me and I love you
Maybe one day I'll love me too