41 Miles

Forty one miles away
And still nothing could lead me back home
 
Before my eyes cheated me
Old pages of insanity, to burn

Four hundred times you said
Heard those echoes that made me wait for
Leave all the ephemeral, don't leave me at all
You don't hear although I'm here, even closer than before

And with this leave I will start being - without proving
But if you wish I`ll be outside

I thought I`d never let myself - be so cruel
Lately all we need isn't there 

My life kept burning
Light on my own
Dementia blurring
Breaking the dawn

And with this leave I will start being - without proving
But if you wish I`ll be outside

I thought I`d never let myself - be so cruel
Lately all we need isn't there 
Where are the words I tried to remember?
Try to become
Don`t try to resemble
Life`s unspoken reasons I keep on trying to hear

My life kept burning
Light on my own
Waiting, returning
Breaking the dawn

And with this leave I will start being - without proving
But if you wish I`ll wait outside

How come you never allow yourself
Maybe all we need is despair

Where are the words I tried to remember?
Try to become
Don`t try to resemble
Life`s unspoken reasons I keep on trying to hear 

And with this leave I will start being - without proving
And when you wish I`ll be outside

How come you never allow yourself - a bit cruel
Lately all we need is despair
Where are the words I tried to remember
Give me one song
I`ll try to surrender to life's unspoken
reasons why I even hear these
reasons why I even see these
reasons I keep on trying to hear

41 miles away,
Though within is where I found my real home