death bed, Pt. 2

You lift me up
You know my name
You fill my cup
I'll never be the same
This light of mine
I'll let it shine
'Cause you know my name
I'll never be the same again
Ayy, ayy

It's been a while since we talked last, let's keep it real
It seems like everyone's forgotten, but you never will
This life's a rocky path that we all move along
Still puttin' flowers by my grave, but you don't stay as long
Friends come and go, but I ain't comin' back
It took you eight months and a therapist to finally come to terms with that
Journal every morning, every dream that you run into me
Might not hear my voice again, but I'll always be listening
So listen one last time as you readin' this letter
Happiest I've ever been was when we promised forever
Honeymoon was in July, then I left in September
Know that God still has a plan, though we no longer together

This light of mine
Ayy, light of mine
I'll let it shine
'Cause you know my name
It'll never be the same again
Ayy

You told me you couldn't keep living if I died first
I told you: God will get you through it, that's how life works
Nobody knew me like you did, you could read my thoughts
You were the first to know I'm sick, you felt that something's off
It started out with a cough, but every day it got deeper
Doctors said I'd get better, but I just kept getting weaker
All our dreams put to an end, a final kiss goodbye
Now I'll keep waitin' for eternity, so take your time

You lift me up
You know my name
You fill my cup
I'll never be the same
This light of mine
I'll let it shine (I'ma let it shine)
'Cause you know my name (oh, you know my name)
I'll never be the same again
Ayy, yeah

It won't be the same, but it gets easier, keep doing your best
Follow the spirit Jesus gave you, angels guiding your steps
Left a piece of me with you and you've been watching it grow
Two months until the day you bring our little girl home
Mama and daughter matching outfits, Christmas alone
Missing the feeling of me there, so you still spray my cologne
Pushing your stroller through the snow, days are quick to get dark
No one to shovel out the car, so it's been staying in park
Don't feel like you're betraying me by going on dates
Single motherhood is heavy, might need help with the weight
Keep on singing to our baby, show her pictures of us
As she grows up, you can tell her 'bout the man that I was

This light of mine
I'll let it shine
'Cause you know my name
I'll never be the same again (Saint)