Medicine Bottle

Giving in to love
And sharing my time
Letting someone into my misery
I told it all step by step
How I landed on the island
And how I swim across the sea
And it crosses my mind
That I may awake to a knife in me

No more breath in my hair
Or ladies underwear
Tossed up over the alarm clock
Blood dripping from the bed
To a neatly written poem
Heartfelt last line reading
"There is no more mystery
Is it going to happen, my love?
There is no more mystery
Is it going to happen, my love?"

It's all in my head, she said
Morning after nightmare
You're building a wall, she said
Higher than the both of us
So try living life instead of hiding in the bedroom
Show me a smile and I'll promise not to leave you

It happened under a rainy cloud
Passing through the dark South
We went into a big house
And slept in a small bed
I didn't know you then
As well as you love me
We talked of our sad lives
And we went off separetely
And we went off separately
I found your overseas souveniers
Holiday greeting cards
And some long forgotten high school fears

It's all in my head, I said
Banging on the piano
I've not been so alone
I thought, since kicking in the womb
I drank so much tea
I put my letters in kanji
Around the block I walked and walked
Pretending you were with me

Not wanting to die out here
Without you

The hurting never ends
Like birthdays and old friends we forget
There is fresh blood and blood is human
Trading phone lines for airlines
Unwilling to face
That love is found on the inside
Not the outside
And like a medicine bottle
In the cabinet
I'll keep you
And like a medicine bottle
In my hand
I will hold you
And swallow you slowly
As to last me a lifetime
Without holding too tight
I do not want to lose
The thrill that it gives me
To look out from my window
And scowl at the houses
From my world in my bedroom
It's all in his head, she read
In a girlfriend's self-help book
It's all 'cause he's making a war with himself
Like two sides with a wall
That separates two countries
He shuts out the world he once knew
To love you

Not wanting to die out here
Without you

Not wanting to die out here
Without you