Hiding (feat. Russ)

Wait wait wait
Are you creeping?
You wanna see what time I'm on?
Wait wait wait
Now I'm leaving
You don't wanna see what time I'm on
Wait wait wait
You wanna play that game, well so do I
Wait wait wait
You wanna hide all day, all day, all night?
Wait wait wait

I feel my body disappear
This night I feel so real
You're all I want my dear, my dear, my dear

Can't breathe with this on my chest
This can't die, yeah
Breathe with me [?], confess
Won't my desires be free?
It's for the best
I can't keep hiding from myself
From myself, from myself
Hiding from myself

Perpetual punishment is what I put myself through
Like of self-forgiveness is the reason I can't move
Shackled to the lack of reconciling with my past
I don't feel safe, I make mistakes
I need to brace for impact
When in fact letting go lowers the knife
That I'm holding to my own throat
But maybe I don't like that, no
Who's gon' protect me if I'm not a high [?]
Needed protection as a kid but protection wasn't there
But I'm 30, now my dad can't be bothered to help
Said I'm 30, now I gotta learn to father myself
See the pain that I've been pushing down?
It's boiling now
Try shooting out my sad
I'm recoiling now
Tormented, tour ended but the show's not over
I got to deal with the booze from my own thoughts sober
What's my future look like without my [?]?
Would they still love Russell if I take the mask off?

Can't breathe with this on my chest
This can't die, yeah
Breathe with me [?], confess
Won't my desires be free?
It's for the best
I can't keep hiding from myself
From myself, from myself
Hiding from myself
Fighting, fighting for this hell
Hiding, hiding from myself
Fighting, fighting for this hell
Hiding, hiding from myself

Wait wait wait
Are you creeping?
You wanna see what time I'm on?
Wait wait wait
Now I'm leaving
You don't wanna see what time I'm on
Wait wait wait
You wanna play that game, well so do I
Wait wait wait
You wanna hide all day, all day, all night?

Can't breathe with this on my chest
This can't die, yeah
Breathe with me [?], confess
Won't my desires be free?
It's for the best
I can't keep hiding from myself
From myself, from myself
Hiding from myself
Fighting, fighting for this hell
Hiding, hiding from myself
Fighting, fighting for this hell
Hiding, hiding from myself