Death For My Birthday

Let me guide you through the story of a boy and his curse.
Tiny diamond in a stroller with his first step chasing the hearse.
Sipping at a cup that's halfway filled
But looking forward to the day he pays that drinking bill.

There's no peace, there's no quiet on this earth
But he could find it nestled tightly in that womb beneath the dirt.
Hurt no more. When he turned twenty four
He wrote to nail to God's front door that said:

I want death, death for my birthday
I want death, death in the worst way.
I want death, death for my birthday

Don't get me wrong because I love life but life has a boyfriend.
Bless my soul, I'm out to destroy them.
I want death, death for my birthday
(For my birthday)

He found a high paying job and the love of his life.
He rode a roller coaster ride of lust on their wedding night.
They made a baby in unmentionable ways.
He was ungrateful as a man could be on that blessed day

And underneath he thought: "This is all a phase.
Just a blip in the existence of a structure vast and great."
Prayed each night to his cross of charm
For the one thing he couldn't afford: Just to buy the farm.

I want death, death for my birthday
I want death, death in the worst way.
I want death, death for my birthday

Don't get me wrong because I love life but life has a boyfriend.
Bless my soul, I'm out to destroy them.
I want death, death for my birthday
(For my birthday)

"I'll never lose another friend again
Or watch them fight a war that's fought for ideals that are dead.
I'll never have an argument again
Because my dust will be your salt.
My blood will hydrate you all.
My heart will be your meal
And I won't ride the cycle of the way it kills to think and feel."
No more."

I want death, death for my birthday
I want death, death in the worst way.
I want death, death for my birthday

Don't get me wrong because I love life but life has a boyfriend.
Bless my soul, I'm out to destroy them.
I want death, death for my birthday
(For my birthday)

One sweet day his heart ceased to beat.
He fell so fast beneath all our feet through bugs and snakes.
Last words he had to say were:

"Help me claw my way to the surface.
Oh, sweet Lord, you know I deserve this.
Just one more. Just one more birthday."