You Can't Be Told It, You Must Behold It

Restless and numb
You can't be told it
You must behold it
To not forget it
Revelation

You can't control it
Disobeyance returns
Learning you'll never learn
I keep telling myself
Do not be mortified
By the unsolidified

Just grin and bear it
Learned and unlearned
Acts of controlling
Methods of compensation
Methods of control