I remember now, but i still have my doubts
I think it's gonna be today
Everybody came, but it's just not the same
Why did it have to be today?
Now my chest is tight - no, i am not all right
It doesn't have to be this way
Why does it have to be this way?

I don't know what's wrong,
It's like i'm too far gone
It doesn't matter, anyway
Fear is in my heart - just when i stop, it starts
And i can never live this way

Freedom in a cage - no sun and too much rage
I don't know how much i can take
Push it down inside, but it knows just where i hide
I know that "normal" is hard to fake
Bleeding into life - it's like a thousand knives
Are slowly turning me to this
Why does it have to be like this?

I don't know what's wrong,
It's like i'm too far gone
It doesn't matter, anyway
Fear is in my heart - just when i stop, it starts
And i can never live this way

I lost again, today…

I don't know what's wrong,
It's like i'm too far gone
It doesn't matter, anyway
Fear is in my heart - just when i stop, it starts
And i can never live this way
Living with a curse, sometimes it's even worse
It slowly kills me everyday
Something i despise is gonna take my life
I guess i'll try again today