Suffering Is a Gift From God

I don't think I meant to
Misuse you, misuse you
When I told you
I wanted it all

This tendency, being better men
Now bitter and cold
A tasteless feeling when
Losing what you love
Loving when you lose

Turning out to be
What you run from
Self fulfilling prophecy

Is it irony
If I kill myself?
This tendency
Self forgiveness
Never meant any less

How can I heal
Inflicting pain
Every step of the way?
This heart that breaks
This heart that speaks