Pamela

Close my eyes and you’re still with me
In the trees with the locusts buzzing, but I
Never can keep my eyes closed long enough
And no amount of dreaming can bring you back, so

I can’t remember if I told you I loved you that morning
Out on the lake, you called for your mother and my
Heart broke into a million pieces
A kind of darkness you just never get used to

So, I stare at the lake
Biding my time
Waiting to die

Wonder if all this pain I carry is
Strong enough to lift your body from the water
And make you be alive again
I think stupid things like this all the time, but

I would gladly trade my life for yours
If only the water could bargain
If only they had been watching
I can’t turn back, only face forward, but

I would gladly trade my life for yours
If only the water could bargain
If only they had been watching
I can’t turn back, only face forward

Open my eyes now, task in front of me
And your voice is always calling, but I
Can’t control the rage inside of me
Spill their blood ‘till the world is done with me

I want you to know right now that I loved you
When you left it almost killed your mother, but
Something inside me propels me forward
A kind of rage you just never get used to

So, I stare at the lake
Biding my time
Waiting to die

And everything that I touch is dead
Everything that I wanted is gone
Nothing before me now but pain
Nothing before me but pain

And your voice
Your voice, of course
Someday I’ll reach you
In my dreams I can reach you

So, I stare at the lake
Biding my time
Waiting to die

Cutting the meat
Forest of meat
Spill their blood
Spilling their blood

And resurrect my son
Resurrect my son

Stare at the lake
Biding my time
Waiting to die