If I Surrender

Lately I've been feeling so ashamed
By these thoughts I'm hiding in my brain
'Cause I've been holding them down
But they twist me violently
I'm hanging by a thread tonight
But this time I don't wanna be saved

So, let me fall
Let me break under everything unsaid
Just let me die
Because I can't take living
With what's in my head
If I surrender, surrender
To the monsters in me
If I surrender, surrender
To the monsters in me
Will it set me free?

What's the point of holding on like this
When no one seems to care if I exist
There is no agony like being strong
When no one knows you're sick
So sick of hearing I should stay
When I know I would never be missed

So, let me fall
Let me break under everything unsaid
Just let me die
Because I can't take living
With what's in my head
If I surrender, surrender
To the monsters in me
If I surrender, surrender
To the monsters in me

If you could see under my skin
You'd realize why I hold it in
Why it's a fight I don't wanna win
Why it's a fight I don't wanna win

If you could see all my abuse
And spend a day inside my shoes
You'd realize why I just wanna lose
You'd realize why I just wanna lose

Will anyone believe the hell of being me
Before I decide to be the dying proof
So, let me fall
Let me break under everything unsaid

Just let me die
Because I can't take living
With what's in my head
If I surrender, surrender
To the monsters in me
If I surrender, surrender
To the monsters in me
Will it set me free?